I have to officially declare that Panic isstarting to set in with me. I have not made adequate progress on my dissertation and I am now at the point where I no longer want to mention it or discuss it with family/friends. I am sending out a steady stream of resumes but not getting any hits. In short, I feel stuck and unable to move forward. I hate this feeling because I don't feel like I have any control over my future but rather my life's goals are being thwarted by others or by forces beyond my control. Now, the strong assetive part of me knows that his is crap but I am having trouble digging put from this heavy load of uncertainty and insecurity.
This really makes me wonder, how does one start again or kick start your life when you feel immobilized. I am trying to establish clear goals and to work consistently toward these goals but If I am honest I often end up on facebook or reading another psychological thriller instead of pushing through with working on my stuff. I do pray and read the WORD of GOD but it's becoming more and more difficult to maintains the inspiration and energy I receive from these vital life sources. I am starting to wonder if I will succeed of if I am on the brink of a huge, scary, inescapable failure. It may be time to reevaluate my life and exactly what I want out of it.
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