Daily Musings

Well, it's been a while. We are at the end of summer and I am anxiously awaiting the first day of school for my kids. I just called my dissertation advisor and started the process of re-engaging in the dissertation process. For those of you who don't know I am what people refer to as an ABD. This means I killed myself to fulfill all requirements for a Ph.D. and then fizzled out at my dissertation defense. So, it has been some years since this fizzling and I haven't managed to fully re-engage in the process. But today I squashed all of the fear and anxiety that typically wells up when I deal with this issue and I actually called my advisor and talked about it. I developed a list of things to accomplish before I call him again. This list is not complicated nor is it made up of what any other person would consider significant events. But it is a start and that's all I can manage right about now. According to my list I have to : 1) call the head of my department at the graduate school and find out what parameters I have to abide by to even have a chance of completing this process, 2)look up my advisors current research to think about a new topic that fits, and then 3) I wrote the word 'Pray' four times because I am going to desperately need the help of my father to make it through this process.