Well, today is my 39th birthday. I can honestly say that this is the first time in about nine years that I have not dreaded this day because of my unfinished dissertation. I don't know if this just because of the small step I took last week to re-connect with my dissertation advisor or if my priorities are shifting but today I mostly focused on what I have to be thankful for. I have not done any of my to-do list except to pray but I still feel good about it. I did look up the contact information for my departmental chair so I plan to e-mail him to determine if the requirements for completing my doctoral degree have changed. I plan to compose this e-mail right after the kiddies go to bed. I did get a call from my advisor. I let the call go to voice mail. I will listen to it after I have composed the e-mail and before I send it. I am a little unhappy w/ the fact that he contacted me before I completed my to-do list but I am not allowing myself to focus on anything negative.
Today was the kids first day of school. I so enjoyed having the day off and being able to take them and pick them up. I did become acutely aware of how socially anxious my 7 y/o son is. He was overly chatty this morning and on the drive to school . I could tell he was trying to allay his anxiety. He has been a nail biter since he was a baby and he tends to chew on his nail beds. He made a comment that he was going to chew his fingers up. I feel kind of stupid that I never really undetstood the depth of his social anxiety. He and his sister are in the same class which I am not too happy about. His sister was definitely not happy about this. My son, CP, tends to have behavioral problems and other school challenges. My daughter, RP, is an overachiever who never gets in trouble and is usually the teacher's favorite. While waiting for class to began, RP went on a happy search for her old friends. CP followed her around like a clumsy puppy unsure of how to manage. It was painful to watch. I will have to figure out how to support him more. I will also have to deal with his behavior issues with an increased awareness of his anxiety. It is undoubtedly a major contributor.
So I treated myself to a major shoe shopping trip. For some reason , DSW gave me $100 in gift cards. They said it was because of my prior shoe purchases. Who am I to argue. Oh well, I really hope my hubby comes through with some acknowledgement of my b-day beyond the "happy b-day, hon' I got this morning. Right now he is watching the Steelers game. That is definitely not on my list of birthday treats.
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