Procrastination

I am in the midst of a major procrastination episode. I have to do three presentations on the last weekend in April and I have not made significant progress on any of the presentations even though I have been aware of these obligations since mid Feb. Of course my biggest excuse has been the overwhelming obligations I have on the job. I truly have more work and stress then I can possibly handle on the job. I went through several weeks of some depression as a result and it took a while to get myself back on an even keel. I had to establish some reasonable boundaries for my self and to engage in some serious priority setting just to keep my head above water. One decision was to insist on taking my vacation this week despite pressure to not take a vacation. This brings me to my current procrastination episode. Since I have let a lot of responsibilities fall by the way side to try to keep up with my job requirements, ten I planned to use this week to catch up. Of course this is now the second day and I have only managed to watch several zillion episodes of missed shows on Netflix. I also managed to fold a few loads of laundry and bathe and put on fresh clothes today.

I so need to get busy with these presentations since I have been dying to have more speaking engagements and I really want to be prepared for these opportunities. I also need to register for my licensing tests, apply for a mortgage modification, and do some serious spring cleaning. Oh, yeah, and I have a job interview on Friday. So why am I sitting here doing nothing significant. I realize that I am really tired and I really don't want to do anything. Of course, this is probably why I am making a blog entry after a lapse of over three months.

I am enjoying time doing nothing with the family. I really miss not having a lot of time with the family because of the job. I miss just sitting around doing nothing but cuddling with my babies and my hubby. I think I am going to do the following to motivate myself:

1) Set small goals tomorrow (i.e. write for about 1 hour then take a break).
2) Include relaxing goals since this is my vacation (i.e. shop, go out to lunch, vegetate in front of t.v.).
3) Not read any more work emails no matter how much it kills me. If its really serious they will call me.
4) Focus on goals that will improve the quality of my life (professional development).
5). Not beat myself up if I don't come through on any of these goals- It is my vacation.