Responsibility

I am really struggling. I am supposed to be helping a group of folk from my highschool days plan our high school reuinion. We all decided to combine three graduating classess to shore up participation. I attended one meeting where only a few of us (only 3) showed up to try to get this thing going. I volunteered to do a few things to move it ahead one of which was to have my husband assist me in getting our registration forms online so folks could send their information in. I have yet to complete this task. I sometimes do things like this. Most of the time I am very responsible and pride myself on being a woman who gets things done. Sometimes, however, I'll come up against a committment I've made and I falter. Now sure I have good reason. I work full time, have three kids , a husband, and a dog, and sometimes I have so many plates spinning I'm surprised all of thiem don't come crashing down around me. But it really bugs me that I do this and in some weird way its like my own pathetic type of rebellion. Now I do have one major career thing that I have procratinated about for years that shall remain nameless. But why in the hell can't I just get this one darn registration form done. AAAGH!

Well I'm going to put it on my list and hopefully I can focus on it tomorrow at work. My fantasy is that I will be able to go to my office , close the door and actually get everything on my to do list done without having to deal with too many crisises tomorrow. Well wish me luck. I also wish I could committ to writing on this Blog every day. I wish I could also be faithful to WeightWatchers Online instead of giving them my money every month and not even logging on. Am I the only screw up out there. Oh well I've learned to give myself a break so I'm going to sign off before I have a true anxiety attack (just kidding). I do thank God that I can lean on his perfection rather than having to be perfect myself. I thank God that even when I feel down , he not only loves me but he is working on my behalf to grow me into who he would have me to be. I don't know if you rely on God like I do but I can honestly tell you that he is the only source of whatever sanity I have.