My Christian Faith

Well, today we made it to church after doing quite a bit of housework. I was surprised we pulled it together and everybody was prepared to go in enough time to actually make it. Pastor Steve was not there but a guy who specializes in apologetics was there. He gave a very clear presentation on why Christians should respond to questions others have about the Word of God and how we should be adequately prepared to do so. I often struggle with this. Although I have been blessed to have sat under wonderful teaching throughout my Christian life and even though I myself have taught bible studies I don't feel that I always do a good job of defending the scriptures. I sometimes shy away almost as if I think I am not able to adequately defend my faith. Even with this blog I struggle with whether this should be a ministry tool or just a collection of my musings. I figure it will be a little of both. I am definitely a Christian in that I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe that we were all born in sin as a direct result of Adam/Eve fallen in the Garden of Eden. As such the only way we could be reconciled to our original relationship with God our Father was through the sacrifice Jesus Christ made at Calvary in being crucified, dying, and rising again on the Third day. It was through his death and resurrection that I now have access to the Father. This death was a gift my saviour offered to me and I only had to accept it, repent of my sins, and believe in him as my saviour. As a result I can directly communicate with God and can have the confidence that my sins are forgiven and that when I die I will go to Heaven and live with my savior for ever...Within this life I can come to know my father personally by reading the bible and praying. It is through his word that I can come to know him more and to understand how to live my life in a way that is pleasing to him.

For me the Word of God provides the most useful heuristic for how to live my life and how to understand reality. It is not a stale antique book that is not relevant to modern times. Rather it is a living word that speaks directly to my life today and offers wisdom for how to live my daily life. I am not as disciplined as I can be but I read the Word of God and I listen to ministers who teach the Word of God on an almost daily basis.

As I continue to write this blog I will make it a point to try to reveal how I utilize the Word of God to live my life. The Word of God is basically how I retain my sanity in an insane world.

More importantly I don't think the Bible and my faith is just true for me because I choose to believe it. I believe it is the Truth. My challenge is to communicate this to a world and in a time when this assumption of Truth is not popular.

Whew! I pray that as you read if you choose to read that my life can be a living testimony of my faith. I'm sure if you have read my blogs you can sense that I am far from perfect. ?Well that's the beauty of Christianity it does not demand perfection it just demands that you strive for perfection by learning to rely less and less on your own power- but by learning to depend totally and completely on him

Responsibility

I am really struggling. I am supposed to be helping a group of folk from my highschool days plan our high school reuinion. We all decided to combine three graduating classess to shore up participation. I attended one meeting where only a few of us (only 3) showed up to try to get this thing going. I volunteered to do a few things to move it ahead one of which was to have my husband assist me in getting our registration forms online so folks could send their information in. I have yet to complete this task. I sometimes do things like this. Most of the time I am very responsible and pride myself on being a woman who gets things done. Sometimes, however, I'll come up against a committment I've made and I falter. Now sure I have good reason. I work full time, have three kids , a husband, and a dog, and sometimes I have so many plates spinning I'm surprised all of thiem don't come crashing down around me. But it really bugs me that I do this and in some weird way its like my own pathetic type of rebellion. Now I do have one major career thing that I have procratinated about for years that shall remain nameless. But why in the hell can't I just get this one darn registration form done. AAAGH!

Well I'm going to put it on my list and hopefully I can focus on it tomorrow at work. My fantasy is that I will be able to go to my office , close the door and actually get everything on my to do list done without having to deal with too many crisises tomorrow. Well wish me luck. I also wish I could committ to writing on this Blog every day. I wish I could also be faithful to WeightWatchers Online instead of giving them my money every month and not even logging on. Am I the only screw up out there. Oh well I've learned to give myself a break so I'm going to sign off before I have a true anxiety attack (just kidding). I do thank God that I can lean on his perfection rather than having to be perfect myself. I thank God that even when I feel down , he not only loves me but he is working on my behalf to grow me into who he would have me to be. I don't know if you rely on God like I do but I can honestly tell you that he is the only source of whatever sanity I have.