Why Did I Get Married

A couple of girlfriends I've had since high school took me out to celebrate my birthday. We did lunch and treated ourselves to Tyler Perry's new movie. I must honestly say that I thoroughly enjoyed the movie. I haven't read any reviews of the movie so I don't know what everyone else is saying but I know that the movie actually made me laugh, cry, and laugh so hard that I started crying again. Relatively speaking the movie was well made, some of the acting was a little awkward (Janet Jackson and Malik Yorba's emotional epiphany) but for the most part it was great. Hat's off to Denise Boutte, her alcohol inspired tirades carried the movie and provided me with some much needed comic relief. I liken myself to Janet Jackson's character, the mental health professional who can't seem to stop dispensing unheeded, much needed free therapy to my family and friends. The movie gave a good overall perspective on the reality of marriage, faithful spouses, unfaithful spouses, committed husbands, abusive husbands, selfless wives, and selfish wives. Once thing is certain no marriage is perfect and it takes a great deal of work, commitment, and much prayer to make it work. I thank God for my fourteen years of wedded bliss. It has not been easy but I wouldn't trade my hubby for anything in this world. This movie and the ensuing conversation with my girlfriends reminded me that one should not take a good relationship for granted and should actively work to keep fire simmering. A word to the wise. I'm going to try to remember this more over the next few weeks and try not to focus exclusively on the little petty things that I am not getting and focus more on all the wonderful aspects of my husband that I do have. In the movie Janet's character, a psychologist, asked her girlfriends to evaluate their relationship by making a list of the pros and the cons. If the pros outweigh the cons then you should do whatever it takes to maintain your relationship. The pros of my marriage definitely outweigh the cons so I've got some work to do.

Unpredictable day

Well today I managed to spend more time than I planned traveling the wonderful southern california freeways. Kid #2 had been sick for the last two days but was well enough or well enough to be convinced to return to school today. So I drop all three off, spend considerable time making sure kid#2's teach and the school nurse are clear on the need for her to use her inhaler st school today, head off to work, find parking without breaking any laws, make it into the office, see client , sit down to check my e-mail, then BAM!!!. I get a call from Hubby saying kid#1 is not feeling well and the school just called to say she needs to come home. Now I have to travel over an hour on the freeway in traffic to get from the kid's school to my office. So what does a caring mom do. I ask to speak to kid# 1 on the phone and ask "Are you sure you are really sick?"

-yes mom, my sinuses are acting up and I think I have a fever.
-How much of a fever?
-Mommm. I'm sick
-Sick enough to come home or can you hang out at school till the afternoon.
-I guess I can try (cue the violins)

Well the guilt lasted about two full minutes before I packed up my stuff and headed out to my perfect parking space and traipsed back to pick kid#1 up.

Could she have gotten sick before I spent her college fund driving back and forth to work. Anyway I get there and the school nurse sends for her. Soo as she gets there I feel her head and sure enough NO FEVER. She compensated by giving me the b00-boo face and saying "I feel realllly bad." I checked on kid# 2 while there and watched while she took her inhaler.
Kid#1 is downstairs now recuperating, watching Highschool Musical on the DVR
I'm upstairs trying to get my computer to sign on to the program I need to run a report for work and trying to figure out if technically I need to take sick time for the afternoon or if I'm technically still working.

I thin I'll go downstairs and put the lamp really close to kid #1 so she can really have a fver. Just kidding. Oh the joys of motherhood.

Oh well its probably God intervening form me making a big mistake today. I had scheduled a meeting with my colleagues. I was recently moved and am now working in thier programs. Now according to my boss I don't work for them and we are all on the same level. Of course no one knows what the h--- this means so the purpose of the meeting was to try to hash it out. Of course I don't know how anxious they are to integrate me into their kingdom and my frustration level is through the roof so today's meeting may not have turned out well. We are going to reschedule and I think I will lay out the agenda and possible integration plans via emial beforehand and CC my boss (their ultimate boss also) to circumvent any unwillingness on their part to play nicely.

I'll keep you updated.

Crazy Day

Well I had made a committment to not complain or whine anymore after reading a recent article in Oprah. Well that's pretty much a bust. I think I would have actually made if I didn't have to actually talk to or see anybody during my whine fast. But, unfortunately, I have yet to close escrow on that isolated island and thus I had to try to avoid complaining while dealing with real life. Right now I am in a stagnant place careerwise and having a hard time making some much needed changes so while I am stagnating I tend to have a lot to complain about. For example today while sitting through yet another exhausting case conference (i am a mental health professional working for a non profit) I had to refrain from screaming when one of my colleagues asked if it was okay for her to bring her dog she wants to foster to our facility in the hopes that it would be therapeutic for the clients. Well we are cramped for space and we don't even have enough room to sit or do therapy but now we have to contemplate making room for Fido. Now granted I am no Michael Vick fan in that I have a healthy appreciation for dogs as outdoor pets but I don't want to share cramped office with a dog. Consciously employing relaxation techniques. Whew! I had to reign myself in I felt a total rampage coming on. At any rate I know my frustration with my job situation is simply reflective of my own frustration with myself but it's hard to maintain my sanity in the midst of such insanity. Oh well this is my third attempt to begin a Blog, I hope I can keep it up. See you next time.