So i resisted the urge to take a 'mental healthm day and went into work today. Things have been really rough w/ my job. Basically, I have been marginalized into a pointless position whe i basically have nothing to do all day. Worse everyone around me is aware of my current status. ~ was never given an explanation for this technical demotion. Now my pay was not reduced, but I was placed on a contract that terminates at the end of June. The person who was brought in to assume my role has been given carte blanche to monopolize all of the responsibilities even though trying to do theses tasks is counterproductive. To make matters worse my former colleague who is now my boss has not stepped in to reorganize tasks. She has allowed herself to be intimidated by this new person. Now in her defense , her boss, is closely aligned with then new person and has made it quite clear that she is more interested in supporting all of her ideas. So basically, my former friend/new boss probably would not be successful in trying to get a handle on this mess. But it is still her job and I am suffering from a lack of clarity and structure. There has been no official documentation of and deficient work on my part. Neither is there any unofficial documents floating around. The most upsetting part of this whole ideal is the feeling that my presence, contribution, and very existence is being ignored. I have to admit I have never had an experience like this and it is driving me insane. I am normally a very proactive, kick butt types of person. Thus,sitting idly by while this happens is very foreign to my existence. I have applied for other jobs but the job market is crazy right now and I don't have any other firm offers. So, I am a little hesitant to upset the rotten apple cart. I am being paid more money than the other staff to basically do nothing. This however, is little comfort. I want to quit but I cannot afford to. I want to demand that they define a specific role for me that is commiserate with my experince and skill set.
This is obviously a season of angst for me. I am trying to stay in the moment and learn whatever little lessons this trial is supposed to teach me while desperately seeking out a way to resolve this situation so I can move on but I am at a loss for how to proceed. This is probably a definite sign that I need to finish my dissertation but honestly I don't even know how to proceed with that.
Well, if nothing else, maybe I can get more blogging done.
